Homesickness part 1 // getting attacked by swans // Bristol Zoo

For the past two weeks or so I’ve had this constant throbbing in my chest, and had been so far, successfully ignoring it. Because of the intense work load that was dumped on me, I didn’t think I had time to deal with it. Turns out putting it off was kind of a bad idea. I am naturally a defensive and argumentative person. But this seems to intensively by about a 100% when I’m upset. Which is what the throbbing in my chest was – sadness. Before I went on exchange, I was warned about the emotional roller coaster that would begin once I arrived. It seemed kind of silly to think this would happen to me. When I moved out of home (2 years ago), I was not fazed in the slightest being away from everyone.  With that said, I did try to visit my family at least once a month. I’ve just passed that one month mark (40 days to be exact) here in England and finally succumb to homesickness. 0/10 do not recommend.

However, wallowing in self-pity isn’t my forte. So I’ve immediately begun trying to cheer myself up.

I got a coffee, grabbed some bread and set off to the lake. It was swan feeding time. Turned out swans are quite greedy. When I ran out of bread, their hunger turned to flesh. Just kidding, but seriously they chased me away, which in hindsight is hilarious – but at the time I felt even sadder – not even they wanted my company.

It was time to up my game. I commenced with the usual “pick me up” routine. The ache in my chest persisted. I started to get annoyed with myself for still feeling upset. If the feelings weren’t going to go away, I’d simply distract myself. Off to Bristol Zoo it was. I always forget how much joy I get from photography. Probably the main reason I started this blog. I love capturing moments. Yes, I do realise I’m not the most talented photographer ever to grace to earth, but it makes me happy.

Because I went a little photo crazy at the zoo (culled 371 photos to 32), I have to break up the topics I wanted to cover in this post over two or three more posts to come this and next week.

On Monday I sent out on a little journey to explore the idea of “Treating Yo’ Self”. Very much looking forward to it!